Sun in Gate 43, And Reflections on my 5 Year Anniversary with Human Design
This week (11/10-11/15) there is/has been potential for sudden BREAKTHROUGH (43). Themes around knowing/not knowing. And also, deafness . A resistance to listening to what others know, protection against external influence in order to protect inner knowing. A need to know for oneself. And, potential anxiety that you will be rejected for what you know, perhaps because you think your ideas are too weird and you don’t know how to explain them.
In order to know, we need to embrace not knowing. When distracted by what we think we know and rigidly clinging to this, there’s no space for the true knowing to emerge. We are creating a mental environment that is hostile to the possibility of breakthrough.
Earlier this week (11/11 ) was the five-year anniversary of the day I first saw my Human Design chart
The sun had just entered into the first line of Gate 43: Breakthrough (Insight) ️. The precise inverse of my 1/3 Right Angle Cross of Explanation
Gate 43 (this week’s solar transit as well) is a sudden knowing originating from within. It isn’t based on facts or logic. It often doesn’t know how or why it knows; it just KNOWS. And what it knows is often unconventional and ahead of its time- but when explained effectively, it can empower quantum leaps in innovation and efficiency.
This was what I felt the moment I first saw my chart. I just KNEW! I knew, that’s ME. I recognized myself instantly even though in many ways I had no idea what I was looking at.
Even though I yet to begin investigating the logic and the details, I hadn’t begun to consciously experiment and substantiate my knowing with lived experience- I knew that I was experiencing a massive mutation that would transform my life in ways I couldn’t even begin to imagine. 5 years later, the knowing is still just as powerful- but so much more patient, grounded and mature.
The earth now in Gate 23: Splitting Apart (Assimilation)- this is one of the three gate polarities that defines an entire channel: The Channel of Structuring, A Design of Individuality (From Genius to Freak). Gate 23’s job is to structure 43’s strange knowing and translate it into clear, simple, empowering terms.
Oh, the 43-23. I know this one so well. When I effectively explain what I know to those who have invited my perspective, I am a genius. Others remark, “wow, I’ve never thought of it like that before! You changed my life!”
But if I do not explain myself well, if I overcomplicate things or try to force my knowing upon people who haven’t invited it- this is when I am a freak. They’ll say “she’s so weird. What the hell is she talking about?”
Back to the present… here are some questions to guide your contemplation this week:
If I am being as honest with myself as possible: what are some things I KNOW, and what are some things I actually DON’T KNOW? Make a list of each.
Where am I rigidly holding onto ideas of right vs wrong? What forms of diversity do I resist accepting?
Is there something that I know, but I’m afraid to try and explain it because I fear I’ll be misunderstood or rejected? Bonus: How might I explore this knowing somatically and creatively through song, dance, movement or art?
Where have I been encountering resistance when I try to share what I know? In these instances- has my knowing been invited? Am I truly only speaking to what I know?